Heart and Mind

     Now, I'm definitely not the best writer. I'm only human, I usually can't put my feelings into words that well, but when I do, and when I do it somewhat well, is very rare. But sometimes, I actually succeed in getting the feelings onto paper.
I was in the shower, (where oddly I think the most) And I thought about feelings. Physical feelings, emotional feeling. The bunch. Get your mind out of the gutter, my nerves.

Heart and Mind
Your heart and mind can work together beautifully, or not at all together or well. What is it exactly? That feeling in your heart of love? It's an emotional feeling, but yet a physical feeling. I'm not talking about the feeling of lust, but the physical feeling of love, being in your heart. It's hard to explain.  Is it your mind making you think there's a feeling there? We all know our brain conducts everything in your body, but what I'm talking about is the thoughts and emotions in your mind. Your mind is run by the brain, the knowledge of the subject and so on. But while thinking thoughts, the heart has physical feeling. Like they say "That hit me hard in the chest".
I believe the heart does have physical feeling while while the mind is emotional. It originates from a sudden emotional trigger, such as stress, or shock, or love. This is the heart, working with the mind and brain together. For example, knowing I hurt someone emotionally makes my heart feel physically cold and heavy. For me, this causes everything in my body to not function properly, or as it usually should.
A couple years ago, it wasn't just the knowledge of knowing I hurt someone that made my heart feel cold, or like a rock in my chest. It was the absence of love in my life. I knew God loved me, but I didn't accept it due to what I was planning. Everyday my heart had the feeling of being heavy and cold. But now inside my chest, my rib cage, is warmth. Not heaviness, not bitterness, but warmth. And a somewhat steady heartbeat.
I'm so incredibly and indescribably blessed and loved. And I accept that with open arms.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

You've got that special place in my heart. The one where I can feel it. That may not sound sincere, but it's me trying to get the feelings onto paper.