Monday, November 22, 2010

New Desires

         I haven't blogged in a while, there's a lot of stuff happening lately. I got to visit my man this past weekend, it was so great. We made brownies, which were so yummy. Oh, and I know what happened to them :P!
Recently I was thinking a lot about my future, and what I want to do in it. And it dawned on me, maybe I'm meant to lead. Maybe in my new life I'm here to start relationships, help others come to know Christ. Because that's what we're called to do. I'm not sure, I'm just thinking about these things. But it is a possibility. I really have no idea on what I want to do in my future, and it's so frustraiting! A lot of my friends know what they want to do, and they have their futures planned out and they know what to aim for. But I don't. I feel so small in this world. I wish I knew what I wanted to do.
Lately I've been having these heart problems, I'm not exactly sure what's happening with my heart, if it's serious or nothing. My heart is feels like it's beating out of my chest 24/7, I'm dizzy and tired, and there's a constant pain in my chest. I feel like throwing up sometimes, or passing out. It's been better now though. Now I'm only feeling dizzy and there's a slight pain in my chest. Maybe it's stress? I don't know. I'm terrified of needles and hospitals, so I'm too chicken to go to a hospital to get tested. I'm just hoping it's not serious... Guess I'll pray :)

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